Tuesday, June 25, 2019

Disseminating me

If you found my phone
would it tell you all 
about me?

Would my pictures of
stuff I see tell you 
about me?

Would my message threads
show the real truth of
who I am?

Would all my contacts
tell you about 
my values?

If I delete Facebook,
Instagram, Twitter 
and Pinterest –-
am I here?

I’ve grown to know me
nowrather well, now
that I’m me.

I am here watching,
thinking, learning all
about me:

what I value most,
how I ground myself,
how I gauge the world,
new – old things,
all over again.

It’s tough swimming
upstream with this bale
of principles 
and facts --  

but I am me
and I must.

Monday, May 20, 2019

Needful panecea

Those precious tiny moments:
where the hearts skip a beat,
& breath is caught up short…
Why can't there be more -- 
… strung closer together 
            to make all this 
            bearable?

Saturday, March 30, 2019

AGATHA CHRISTIE & the eleven missing days

“In my  experience, obsession is like getting caught in no man’s land.
You’d get out if you could, but you don’t know where the bullets are coming from.

You’re better off sitting in a shell hole covering your ears.
You never know, you might get lucky.”

Trapped by our outer obsessions is overall satisfying: the goal is met.
It’s the inner obsessions that cause all the trouble.

I just observed my doppelganger in a past life in this coffee shop.
Right away the denim overalls, teal t-shirt 
& moss canvas Maryjanes caught my eye.   Me.
However, her son – therefore not a true time traveling vision – 
at the table next to her on an iPad 
and she at her computer with her huge iPhone.
In fact the whole thing was looking a little too Pittsford chic.

So, I went back to daydreaming about why yoga studios 
never have anyone around when you need them 
and always look shabby outside.  
(Unless they are actually an upscale spa 
and in that case yoga is an afterthought.)

But then, oh then, she and son left and, in the parking lot I saw…

I saw them get into a jeep. A two door soft top jeep. 
Oh no. Way too close to home.
Except she unzipped the front window– what is that about?
A 1995 jeep?  That is so not me.

But then, oh then she went over the curb when she backed out.
I thought, get me out of here now. I need that 11 days.

Friday, September 21, 2018

Waiting for Florence

(a pantoum)

I opened the closet door
and the boxes fell into my arms -- before
landing on my chest and on down to the floor
spilling pencils, pens, paper, and more

needed things, useful things -- to store.                 
I opened the balcony door
and let the outside in,
the quiet of peaceful abandonment.

Inside being in order and by plan:
needed things, useful things -- what for?
Outside windy impulses span
time and I let the outside inside me roar:

needed things, useful things -- restore
landing on my chest and on down to the floor
to let the outside inside me for more,
I open the all the doors.

Thursday, June 21, 2018

├ęcureuil

My dearest squirrel,

I remember you first scurrying
about at Marion Square.
Who knew then how contagious
was your energy;

how witty and forthright,
your exclamations;
how wicked you would
become with a pickaxe?

who knew that
you embrace challenges
with an inspiring fervor,
headlong, come what may.

Who knew these things
and did not fall involve with you?




Fall in the lowcountry


Bushy plumps of
pampus grasses
dense river currents
crashing frothy waves
on tired sand
sun bright and low,
clouds dark and high
breeze at your back
bugs at bay
fall in the low country





Nicole and Steve moved away






I took the dog for a walk last night
out the pedestrian gate,
down the sidewalk
to the marina.
I looked up,
4015’s lights were on.
3003’s lights were on.
I turned towards the docks --
your lights were not on.
Stupid going awayness.